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Name: Mandy(Amanda)
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Amarillo
Birthday: 11/28/1987
Gender: Female

Interests: I am obssesed with the sexy men of LOTR!!!! I love doing things to please others, even if they get upset about it. I am a very giving person and would put most others above myself, even if my friends sometimes think I can be high on myself and all. I enjoy all art forms and i am an active member in poetry club, art club, and training at my highschool!
Expertise: Hmm?
Occupation: Student

Message: message me

Member Since: 12/26/2004

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Thursday, February 09, 2006

ok ok so it has been a long time i know i am sorry... Things are ok now....some good some not so good....but i am not as stressed out anymore. this is good. softball has started and we have gotten to a rough start but i have faith in the team and thing we will get better...(i am the trainer so i dont have to run :)) I talked to my mom today she should be home from iraq by the time graduation rolls around... that is good. Cant wait to have her home. I was thinking about going into the army reserve and going to college....that could be fun...and it would onlly be part time so it wouldnt be so hard. that is cool. and they would help pay for college. cant go wrong...if my mom can make it thru basic...so can i. I cant think of anything else right now. so talk to you later i guess

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Sunday, August 14, 2005

hey guys, guys what school starts in like a day.......i think i dont want to go back but i do.....it is confusing......i got some new school clothes yesterday.....i am going to look good this year lol.......all i need is the bf to match lol..........i like all this rain we are getting it is nice......good days for drinkin hot tea and reading a good book. think i will do that tomorrow if football gets called. see ya later.

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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

things have been crazy lately........i just want to say thanks for what you said if you read this and i am sorry for the pain i caused (FB).........you should know who you are....i am bored right now........i feel lost.......i dont know who to turn to never did really but now i need someone and the only person i felt secure in being there for me even if i didnt want to believe it has shipped off to iraq. damn war. Sometimes i catch myself thinking about what life would be like if i never moved to my dad in the first place....would i be the same person...would my mom go into the navy....would i have the same friends.....would i be a bitch......but that is all water under the bridge......i have my life and i am happy with it.....i have to be otherwise i might as well enter my shell and never come out and i dont want to do that.....so i have to make the best with what i am given...arent we supposed to do that......maybe later i will be delt the winning hand until then i have to save my chips and stay in the game right. sorry ya'll read my rambling......hope you didnt finish lol might have fallen asleep. catch ya later

btw.......yes i am a bitch but i am no lier

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Saturday, July 23, 2005

Man it has been a long time since i wrote. Lost friendships, mom deployed, where to start.

Well school ended, both of them, school and summer school; Monday the 18th my mom went to Cali for two month training for Iraq. From Cali she goes tgo Keweit or howeverf you spell that sandbox of a country, then to Iraq. Early June, i got into a fight with Jennifer and we quit being friends. Didnt cry over it. Dont plan on it either. Um......i went on a date with this really hot guy* but if you dont already know who he is then you wont know. ha ha keep you guessing. I moved in with Kim Minier. Fun fun let me tell you. I have tickets for the Disterbed concert. (got them for free love the connectinos i still have at my mom's radio station) All three of my Brothers moved to KY after my mom left and my Gpa moved into my house. talk about change. I think my dog jumper broke his foot but i dont know i have to take him the vet... I start two a days on monday i think. that'll be fun

thats's all i can think about right now. um i guess talk to you later.

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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

LIES

I sit here in the shower

Wondering where it all went

Missing my life the way it used to be

All the pain and disappointment

Now numbs my whole body

The dark beginning to consume me

I try to see where it went

My life, the lie I have lived

I feel no need for explanation

Some things are better left that way

Though I would rather reveal myself than my situation

I hesitate,

Through the dark is light

I pretend to close my eyes

When it is dark I burn bright

I sit here in my desperation

Wondering if the things I did

Were just to be different

I here through my actions I will express my situation

Nothing I ever do is wrong though never right

I’ve crossed the lines not easily defined

There is always some path I am supposed to choose

With never any particular reason.

Now the darkness cannot be undone

It fills my every crevice, all my being

Blood mixed with water and sweat,

Pouring from me

I wonder if it wasn’t all a lie

Please tell me if this is any good

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